It still amazes me – the giving of Himself to this ol’ rebel.
The other day I felt important words coming up in me so I wrote them down: “There’s something about living in the darkness and seeing a great light that changes a person. For when the time is right we find we are no longer afraid to go back into the darkness. For love. Because now we carry the light within us.”
I haven’t done anything with those words, but I haven’t forgotten them either. It has laid kind of dorment yet intrigued on my heart since I wrote it. Then this morning I read this:
“Go out into the world uncorrupted, a breath of fresh air in this squalid and polluted society. Provide people with a glimpse of good living and of the living God. Carry the light-giving Message into the night….”
~ Phillipians 2: 15-16 The Message
Sometimes the condemnation comes swiftly and I start to feel like there’s something I could be doing; SHOULD be doing. One look at the newspaper headlines or the local breaking news and we cannot ignore the state of our world. If I were being honest I’d have to say I struggle with a Savior complex quite often; feeling utterly responsible for fixing it all. But as we enter this new year I’m more determined than ever to let my light shine – right here where I am. No need to feel badly for not being somewhere I’m not. No need to assume there’s something bigger and better that I could be doing. I’m here. You’re there. We have the circle of influence that we have and shining our light smack dab where we are has a ripple effect much larger than we could ever know!
My history brings with it some people that growing up in legalism and fundamentalism taught (and still teaches, though I don’t have ears to hear that message any more) to stay away from. I’ve had a lot of re-learning and un-learning to do these last five years – don’t let me lie to ya, I still got lots more. But I can say today, I’m not afraid. God is bigger than the boxes we keep Him in and His Light, which we carry within us, is bright enough to shine out into the darkest of places.
So may I encourage you to go out into your world, uncorrupted, having received all that you have from Him! Be a breath of fresh air wherever you are today! Do not fear the night you may be walking in or amongst today – for we carry the Light within us now.